| Tuesday, September 14th, 2004 |
| 2:08 am |
well i hate this journal don't like the name or the password therefore i am changing it so hit me up over at ready for this all original eat_an_ostrich ye a i know it rocks reflects from me anwya hit me up over there and tell me how much you love/like me and how hot i am and i will not get mad i love you cool kids |
| Friday, September 10th, 2004 |
| 6:25 pm |
EVERYBODY I HAVE NA ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE----SHUT UP!!! umm ye a i got that from al bundy off married with children it was funny and now i say it alot cuz it relaly catches ppl off guard anyway iam pretty excited there is a party here at lamas with alot of cool ppl i haven't seen in awhile i am supposed to get a job at chili's on monday that should be good but ihave no gas in my car and that sucks i was suppsoed to go meet caroline tonight but i got stuck with this party adn i don't have anough gas anyway so hopefully i can actually meet her next week cuz she seems really cool anyway things are really starting to look up meeting so really ice cool ppl and havin alot of fun trying to clear my mind and not get so stressed out and now it is time to party umm caroline you are awesome and this post was mainly to express that have a lovely night at work |
| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004 |
| 6:56 pm |
shattered
well it wold appear i foresaw wrong it would appear that i gave up all i had drop all my lifelong plans in vein,,however that is ok it was worth it all to me.... from what i undersatnd amanda and i seperated tonight we are no longer together....... feels weird like no matter what i do everything is off all the way down to how i breathe anyway that is it i am looking to trade my mustang and get an astro van again that would be awesome... to crushed to think of anyhting else to write peace |
| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004 |
| 11:03 am |
man i am so freakin tired ... i have not really been able to sleep here at evan's and that is starting to wear me down... umm i quit my job yesterday b/c it sucked but i have never jsut quit a job without having another one so that is weird... umm i am going to chili's in a few minutes and apply there i am kinda resting all my hopes on that so i umm need that... that is about it...also i want to get my lip repierced so bad however i know amanda doesn't want me to and her parents who already seem to not like me too much as it is would totally hate me having that so not to sure what i shall do about that i've felt her and i have had a rough time lately and i am not sure why... i think alot has to do with her parents making things so hard... like i hate that i am seeing her like once a week if i am lucky when she is like the only person i want to be around right now.. and she is not as good at saying what she is thinking which is ok i just kinda have a hard time readin minds on a happier note i will be moving to a house in plant city like next week that will be awesome well time for more interviews and applications.... |
| Friday, August 27th, 2004 |
| 2:45 am |
i don't think there is really too much new to be said.... i am really wanting to get out of evan's and get settled in somewhere that is like my place i don't like trying to live here....but it seems alittle shady with tim who i am supposed to be getting a good size house with so i am not sure how all that will work anyway that is it umm so far working has been gay i don't like working at applebee's at all i am thinking about quitting shortly and going to work at another restraunt i would also like to go look at a few florring companies or something... i really am tired of nothing relaly going right in my life like i am always having to struggle and that i hate... umm speaking of struggle i don't think i will ever have the approval of the byrd's and that sucks i hate that situtation like i feel that i am not really good enough for amanda and that we come from 2 seperate classes and that i am kinda below the byrd's standards adn they seem to agree with that thought and that sucks b/c i love her more htan anyhting else so that is kinda getting too me.. but w/e i am really tired right now and have alot to do tomorrow so i am going to go to bed |
| Friday, August 20th, 2004 |
| 10:47 am |
ello so much has gone on since i last posted for instance i am no longer a part of the united states marine corps. after failing to deliver the job promised to me (which was the sole reason i joined) i aske d for a failureship adn was released from he overbearing clasps of staff sargeants.. no marching into fredom here is where i have placed myself now...i hvae moved back to plant city fl.. where i just got a temporary job at applebee's in desperate need of money.. i will be moving in with one of my best most loyal friend's tim paul sometime hopefully next month..next semester i plan on attending h c c to obtain my aa from there i would like to attend usf.. i may head over into lakeland looking for a better job either serving or doing some type of flooring wish me luck... overwhlemingly in love and not one complaint..with the exceptions of seemingly crazy overbearing parents....however this seems strong and i am sure we will over come i think i am finally with a good who i would like to size a ring for... that should need no more explanation b/c my feelings for her are always painfully apparent... i miss my best friend dug and am very sadden at the idea of him going away however i do believe he is doing what is best for him at this time.. good luck and God speed well this is all for no so post or i will kill you in your sleep |
| Wednesday, July 28th, 2004 |
| 12:43 pm |
not sure if this is good news
well last night i finally got to talk with my dad's friends the former military ppl of his company..and it was awesome getting alot of inside info from them they answered alot of important questions. first off the clearded it up that the marines is jsut like any other job i go give them my all from a cdertain time til a certain time adn then i am done free to do what i wish i.e. if amanda lived in an area close to where i was going to school then after work i could go out and see her whenever i wanted to..awsome news.. also i do not get a m16 a1 service rifle...i will probably be issued a 9 mm. instead which means that i will have to go get my own permit and own gun to carry something while off duty... they aso told me that i should hold out for my intel job so i called my staff sargeant and i will not be leaving for boot camp until after october... that is all the important stuff so i am going to go see spiderman with my dad peace out cool kids |
| Sunday, July 25th, 2004 |
| 8:27 pm |
well i jsut got done watching the butterfly effect ..what a crazy movie adn crazy weird gif the had....i wish i could go back to the day i joined the marines and play the lotto instead... well i hace alot to say here of course my last trip to tampa was amazing and i will have to go into detail on that later but umm yea i am going to go back again next week i need all the time i can have with amanda until i go umm trying to spend what time i can with my dad before i am out i will talk to you cool kids later.... |
| 8:26 pm |
what would you do fro a klondike bar? |
| Friday, July 16th, 2004 |
| 11:59 am |
it's been awhile
well not too much has changed the last few days.... dug and i are driving to tampa again tomorrow either early in the am or late at nizight...so that will once agian be alot of fun getting anxious about the marines..watched full metal jacket last ngiht great movie...except dug says i will be like private gomer pile and incase you haven't seen it that movie ended badly for ole gomer but i am ready for the pride of saying i am part of one of the most elite hard ass service this beautiful world has to offer...."God has a hard-on for marines...Why?...b/c marines kill everything they see..." it is crazy the things you think about after you realize that you jsut signed a contract that will hold you too 5 years of your life...i just can't wait till i get back i hope all that is going for me now will still be here when i come back.... i guess that is the main thing that will be going through my head while i am gone and already has been one of my only thoughts...time will tell anyway i will talk to you cool kids later.. |
| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 |
| 3:10 am |
well tonight was alittle uneventful but alittle scary all at once... i went over to brooke's hosue to chill with brooke and meg adn dug adn garrett and we ate cake and stuff and then we watched american wedding..this is where i got scurred.. i think about amanda alot... and now that the marines have come into play i have had alot of other things to think about as well ..... but throughout the whole movie she was the only thing i could think about adn like what would happen if i was jason biggs and she was alyson hannigan..it was nuts...and what scared me the most is how scared i am that i will lose the one person i truly have ever loved b/c i joined the marines....like i have wanted to make like all these plans concerning both our futures we are both mad young and i have commitment problems as everyone knows so i guess what is scary is i have no problem wiht the idea of the rest of my life revolving around the most beautiful person i know amanda thomas byrd...i guess i am just super mad scared of losing her again but i guess this is where God's will comes in ... anyway enough with that everyone knows i love thomas so no more dwelling ...dug is getting his ballin mustang back like maybe tomorrow night adn we are supposed to go frog giggin this weekend in his ballin airboat then back up to tampa so that is it for tonight there is no one i could tell this too like and actually be able to voice words so here it is peace |
| Tuesday, July 13th, 2004 |
| 12:42 am |
P.S. i am glad dug is in my life and i can't wait for our 5 years to be up so that we can move in togehter adn have the most ballin apt. ever i love you nig |
| 12:37 am |
DUG YOU ARE REALLY STARTING TO PISS ME OFF!!!!!!
WELL NO ONE EVER EVER EVER POSTS ON MY STUFF And THAT IS MAKING ME SAD.... anyway i have had a reignition and i am so glad i have had a chance to get erveyhting straightened out with amanda we have a really hard time coming up for us adn i can't wait to see how it ends up tampa was awesome thanks to my awesome brother evan for giving dug and i a place to be we are coming back adn have a surprise for him hopefully his cool cat is still cool... i am dying my body hurts adn i am incredibly tired i will catch ya'll kids later... post or die AND REMEMBER I WILL ALWAYS HAVE THE ABILITY TO KILL YOU ALWAYS |
| Monday, July 12th, 2004 |
| 6:40 pm |
just got back from plant city and that was truly and awesome trip... i will post more on that here later this evening i have to go do a fitness test at my marine office so i will be back later hopefully... |
| Wednesday, July 7th, 2004 |
| 3:32 pm |
hello my name austin powell and umm i am bored alot this weekend was awesome i had a really good time...my birthday weekend ended up not being so bad after all..... umm i had an awesome time wiht evan every time i am with him i get remined of home and all the good times i had there and it meant alot thqt he drove all the way here to see me when almost everyone else forgot it was my b-day then there was amanda and michelle..... AMANDA- thomas is the first girl i think i have actaully really really loved...this would explain how extremely tore up and dead i felt when she completely dropped me like nothing else and avoided talking to me for a couple weeks...after what was seemingly a perfect two months.. so for the last month or so i have been doing all i can to forget her and move on thinking that i would probably never see her again...b/c she would not talk to me... i loved her told her i did and she siad she loved me but then said that was jsut cuz i guess she felt she had to adn maybe thought she did but was wrong... so after all that she comes here for my b-day as a surprise and as much as i have been trying to get over her adn everyhting i have missed her alot adn have really wanted to see her...however i said i would not get back withher if i had the chance cuz i don't want this to all happen again ...i also gave up all my previous plans of moving there to go off to the marines which i will be leaving for in about 1 month...so we have a month to make the best of it....and i have bveen very confused about this whole situation but alos pretty happy...because i still love amanda more than anyhting els e and would do anyhting for her... adn she is the only person i have ever been with that i could see any kinda future with and possibly a permanent future....so i am praying about that and i hope the best comes out of that ........as i am sure it will ...haha i just wish i could kiss her like i have wanted to for years.....anyway i will end this segment syaing that i still love and care for immensely and i am so happy she came here and talked to me and gave me the best b-day ever MICHELLE-umm i don't know.. well that is baout it ia m going to tampa next week that will be good ithink dug and i are going to do a cannonball run and race each other there in our mustangs....that will be awesome ...well i am just about... i have spent alot of my time over at my friend meg's house..her and her mom D are so awesome they make me feel so at home and so comfortable i just wanted to say that i love them and they are truly good amazing ppl this is the section of my journal dedicated to my all time motherfucking nig duglas gamlin i joined the marines to better myself yea but alos b/c i was counting on my life ending the day he left..we are inseperable now and i am so glad i met him ..... well peace.. |
| 3:30 pm |
hello my name austin powell and umm i am bored alot this weekend was awesome i had a really good time...my birthday weekend ended up not being so bad after all..... umm i had an awesome time wiht evan every time i am with him i get remined of home and all the good times i had there and it meant alot thqt he drove all the way here to see me when almost everyone else forgot it was my b-day then there was amanda and michelle..... AMANDA- thomas is the first girl i think i have actaully really really loved...this would explain how extremely tore up and dead i felt when she completely dropped me like nothing else and avoided talking to me for a couple weeks...after what was seemingly a perfect two months.. so for the last month or so i have been doing all i can to forget her and move on thinking that i would probably never see her again...b/c she would not talk to me... i loved her told her i did and she siad she loved me but then said that was jsut cuz i guess she felt she had to adn maybe thought she did but was wrong... so after all that she comes here for my b-day as a surprise and as much as i have been trying to get over her adn everyhting i have missed her alot adn have really wanted to see her...however i said i would not get back withher if i had the chance cuz i don't want this to all happen again ...i also gave up all my previous plans of moving there to go off to the marines which i will be leaving for in about 1 month...so we have a month to make the best of it....and i have bveen very confused about this whole situation but alos pretty happy...because i still love amanda more than anyhting els e and would do anyhting for her... adn she is the only person i have ever been with that i could see any kinda future with and possibly a permanent future....so i am praying about that and i hope the best comes out of that ........as i am sure it will ...haha i just wish i could kiss her like i have wanted to for years.....anyway i will end this segment syaing that i still love and care for immensely and i am so happy she came here and talked to me and gave me the best b-day ever MICHELLE-umm i don't know.. well that is baout it ia m going to tampa next week that will be good ithink dug and i are going to do a cannonball run and race each other there in our mustangs....that will be awesome ...well i am just about... i have spent alot of my time over at my friend meg's house..her and her mom D are so awesome they make me feel so at home and so comfortable i just wanted to say that i love them and they are truly good amazing ppl this is the section of my journal dedicated to my all time motherfucking nig duglas gamlin i joined the marines to better myself yea but alos b/c i was counting on my life ending the day he left..we are inseperable now and i am so glad i met him ..... well peace.. |
| 3:06 pm |
chick magnet is an awesome song
hello my name austin powell and umm i am bored alot this weekend was awesome i had a really good time...my birthday weekend ended up not being so bad after all..... umm i had an awesome time wiht evan every time i am with him i get remined of home and all the good times i had there and it meant alot thqt he drove all the way here to see me when almost everyone else forgot it was my b-day then there was amanda and michelle..... AMANDA- thomas is the first girl i think i have actaully really really loved...this would explain how extremely tore up and dead i felt when she completely dropped me like nothing else and avoided talking to me for a couple weeks...after what was seemingly a perfect two months.. so for the last month or so i have been doing all i can to forget her and move on thinking that i would probably never see her again...b/c she would not talk to me... i loved her told her i did and she siad she loved me but then said that was jsut cuz i guess she felt she had to adn maybe thought she did but was wrong... so after all that she comes here for my b-day as a surprise and as much as i have been trying to get over her adn everyhting i have missed her alot adn have really wanted to see her...however i said i would not get back withher if i had the chance cuz i don't want this to all happen again ...i also gave up all my previous plans of moving there to go off to the marines which i will be leaving for in about 1 month...so we have a month to make the best of it....and i have bveen very confused about this whole situation but alos pretty happy...because i still love amanda more than anyhting els e and would do anyhting for her... adn she is the only person i have ever been with that i could see any kinda future with and possibly a permanent future....so i am praying about that and i hope the best comes out of that ........as i am sure it will ...haha i just wish i could kiss her like i have wanted to for years.....anyway i will end this segment syaing that i still love and care for immensely and i am so happy she came here and talked to me and gave me the best b-day ever MICHELLE-umm i don't know.. well that is baout it ia m going to tampa next week that will be good ithink dug and i are going to do a cannonball run and race each other there in our mustangs....that will be awesome ...well i am just about... i have spent alot of my time over at my friend meg's house..her and her mom D are so awesome they make me feel so at home and so comfortable i just wanted to say that i love them and they are truly good amazing ppl this is the section of my journal dedicated to my all time motherfucking nig duglas gamlin i joined the marines to better myself yea but alos b/c i was counting on my life ending the day he left..we are inseperable now and i am so glad i met him ..... well peace.. |
| 3:05 pm |
hello my name austin powell and umm i am bored alot this weekend was awesome i had a really good time...my birthday weekend ended up not being so bad after all..... umm i had an awesome time wiht evan every time i am with him i get remined of home and all the good times i had there and it meant alot thqt he drove all the way here to see me when almost everyone else forgot it was my b-day then there was amanda and michelle..... AMANDA- thomas is the first girl i think i have actaully really really loved...this would explain how extremely tore up and dead i felt when she completely dropped me like nothing else and avoided talking to me for a couple weeks...after what was seemingly a perfect two months.. so for the last month or so i have been doing all i can to forget her and move on thinking that i would probably never see her again...b/c she would not talk to me... i loved her told her i did and she siad she loved me but then said that was jsut cuz i guess she felt she had to adn maybe thought she did but was wrong... so after all that she comes here for my b-day as a surprise and as much as i have been trying to get over her adn everyhting i have missed her alot adn have really wanted to see her...however i said i would not get back withher if i had the chance cuz i don't want this to all happen again ...i also gave up all my previous plans of moving there to go off to the marines which i will be leaving for in about 1 month...so we have a month to make the best of it....and i have bveen very confused about this whole situation but alos pretty happy...because i still love amanda more than anyhting els e and would do anyhting for her... adn she is the only person i have ever been with that i could see any kinda future with and possibly a permanent future....so i am praying about that and i hope the best comes out of that ........as i am sure it will ...haha i just wish i could kiss her like i have wanted to for years.....anyway i will end this segment syaing that i still love and care for immensely and i am so happy she came here and talked to me and gave me the best b-day ever MICHELLE-umm i don't know.. well that is baout it ia m going to tampa next week that will be good ithink dug and i are going to do a cannonball run and race each other there in our mustangs....that will be awesome ...well i am just about... i have spent alot of my time over at my friend meg's house..her and her mom D are so awesome they make me feel so at home and so comfortable i just wanted to say that i love them and they are truly good amazing ppl well peace.. |
| 1:44 pm |
hello my name austin powell and umm i am bored alot this weekend was awesome i had a really good time...my birthday weekend ended up not being so bad after all..... umm i had an awesome time wiht evan every time i am with him i get remined of home and all the good times i had there and it meant alot thqt he drove all the way here to see me when almost everyone else forgot it was my b-day then there was amanda and michelle..... AMANDA- thomas is the first girl i think i have actaully really really loved...this would explain how extremely tore up and dead i felt when she completely dropped me like nothing else and avoided talking to me for a couple weeks...after what was seemingly a perfect two months.. so for the last month or so i have been doing all i can to forget her and move on thinking that i would probably never see her again...b/c she would not talk to me... i loved her told her i did and she siad she loved me but then said that was jsut cuz i guess she felt she had to adn maybe thought she did but was wrong... so after all that she comes here for my b-day as a surprise and as much as i have been trying to get over her adn everyhting i have missed her alot adn have really wanted to see her...however i said i would not get back withher if i had the chance cuz i don't want this to all happen again ...i also gave up all my previous plans of moving there to go off to the marines which i will be leaving for in about 1 month...so we have a month to make the best of it....and i have bveen very confused about this whole situation but alos pretty happy...because i still love amanda more than anyhting els e and would do anyhting for her... adn she is the only person i have ever been with that i could see any kinda future with and possibly a permanent future....so i am praying about that and i hope the best comes out of that ........as i am sure it will ...haha i just wish i could kiss her like i have wanted to for years.....anyway i will end this segment syaing that i still love and care for immensely and i am so happy she came here and talked to me and gave me the best b-day ever MICHELLE-umm i don't know.. well that is baout it ia m going to tampa next week that will be good ithink dug and i are going to do a cannonball run and race each other there in our mustangs....that will be awesome ...well i am just about... i have spent alot of my time over at my friend meg's house..her and her mom D are so awesome they make me feel so at home and so comfortable i just wanted to say that i love them and they are truly good amazing ppl well peace.. |
| Saturday, July 3rd, 2004 |
| 7:36 pm |
turning 19 is boring as hell...seriously it blows... |
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